Have you ever thought to yourself that there was a reason your life took you to a different place? Like for example I knew in my heart that Temecula/San Diego was not the place for us at this moment in our life. I loved living there and miss it so much and I know in my heart we will be back there, but not right now. We tried everything, I went to Minnesota for 3 months thinking we would move there (and thank god we didn't) but that didn't feel right either, we stopped in Austin to see if it would work and finally decided against it. Out of the blue Jason got this job offer to move here and we took it and for some reason I think that it was all part of a bigger plan. Since we moved here we have found out quite alot about ourselves and our family dynamic. Its kinda uplifting in a way.
And then I sit back and am amazed by all the wonderful, open-hearted, kind people I have met here. Its so comforting to know I have a "circle" I have comfort outside of the home and so do my kids. Then I wonder if there was a reason Jaydon is in the class hes in. Was he supposed to meet little Anna and become friends with her. Was he supposed to meet her so she could invite him to Bible Study? Oh boy and when she did his face lit up like he was invited to best party of the year, I couldn't say no. From there we've been to church which is something I knew we needed but was to lazy to do anything about it, but again the look on Jaydons face was priceless and how can you tell your kids "No you cant go to church and learn about God" If it wasn't for little Anna or my friend Edna we would still be lazy and saying we want to go but...
My Friend Edna helped me join Mops and trust me she made sure I was going. Always reminding me to turn in,y paperwork, you need to do it its filling up. With out her too there was no way we would be at this place. I am so proud we took the step mow we have to keep on the path.
I also think we were meant to be at church last Sunday, I think that was in the bigger plan too. The Sermon fit are feelings at the moment, it even made Jason laugh and say he had a good time. (which if you know my Husband is a miracle) I just have this feeling that Everything happened the way it was supposed to. I have this feeling that we are starting down a great path that's only going to bring me more surprises and greater happiness. Its so hard to explain, but I think everythng that has happened this past year was meant to happen, was needed to happen, and was planned to happen. I just feel it in my gut that theres still so much more to happen. I hope I am ready for this new chapter with the boys, cause like I tell people this is the first time in a while I dont know whats going to happen, I dont have anything planned and I am living this life for today and not the future. I am in a weird but good place and experiencing things with the boys I could've never though possible.
I love those little guys more then words can express and even though we have some BAD days they surprise me everyday with something special. I just hope I can me the best mommy for them. I hope they can enjoy me as much as I enjoy them. I hope I have the pleasure of watching then turn in to little men. I hope one day they know how much joy they bring to everyday!